I am tired.

I feel a little better after my last post.

I just have to accept who my friends are.

I can’t change them. I can’t do anything.

I just have to learn to change my life to benefit more of myself.

Make my grass greener on my side.

Except that requires a lot of mowing, cutting, and watering.

Work.

Bed Time,

Night Fellow Bloggers/World.

May your dreams bring delight.

Yours Truly,

-Boiseboy

Have you ever felt alone?

Alone as in you feel like you have no support from anyone and you are left to fight your own demons?

That’s how I feel currently.

I feel as if no one is there to help. I am going through a rough time, and it is as if I have no one to turn to. The person who I supposedly label as one of my “best friends” is always concerned with herself. She always says she cares about me, but then actions speak louder than words. And when it comes to her actions with our friendship she might as well be a couch potato. She is very egotistical, and she treats me as I never exist. She never invites me to hangout, but then whenever she is free she invites what seems anyone else besides me to hang with her. Like tonight, she has a concert, she invites someone else and not me to come see her.

I feel like this with a lot of my friends currently. It is as if I don’t exisist to them.

Therefore, I have no one I feel I run to to just cry in their arms and tell them I am simply not OK. I mean obviously I could, but why give them the satisfaction of helping if I honestly know they most likely will not mean it?

I want someone who will actually care. Maybe I just watch too many movies about seeing people who support and are always there for each other.

I just wish I could find that in someone. Anyone.

Signed,

-Rambling B.B.

Morning:

January 31, 2009

Up. Start of the weekend.

Nothing much going on yet, although there is this really annoying bump at the back of my head.

It’s stuffy in here. “Oh so stuffy!”

It reminds me of a certain youtube video I’m sure many people have seen.

Good Stuff.

Blog you later,

(How Cheesy)

-Boiseboy

As simple as a pop song?

January 31, 2009

As heard from a fairly recent movie,

“Love should be as simple as a love song. I want you to want me.”

Don’t we all wish it could be that simple?

But then again, at times the thought of love really is.

Think about it.

Whenever we hear that good pop song about love on the radio, the one with the perfect lyrics and chords, we instantly go into a world imagining ourselves with our one true love.

The song never leaves our heads. And everytime it comes back that 3 minutes of euphoria comes back as well.

“I want you to want me.”

The only wish I have is that I wish the journey of trying to find love could be just as easy as the daydream of it.

Who Knows?

-Boiseboy