I find the superbowl:

February 2, 2009

Very ridiculous this year.

I mean besides some commericials most of them are not even funny this year.

Although Jennifer Hudson’s singing was amazing. To think after all she’s been through she was able to go up and sing with such emotion. Props to her.

The game really isn’t that worthwhile.

Which leaves me here on the computer typing away.

And I am on ebay.

Which I will have you know:

I am an ebay addict.

If they had an ebayer’s anonymous I would be the head honcho. Oh yes.

I love me some ebay.



Have you ever felt alone?

Alone as in you feel like you have no support from anyone and you are left to fight your own demons?

That’s how I feel currently.

I feel as if no one is there to help. I am going through a rough time, and it is as if I have no one to turn to. The person who I supposedly label as one of my “best friends” is always concerned with herself. She always says she cares about me, but then actions speak louder than words. And when it comes to her actions with our friendship she might as well be a couch potato. She is very egotistical, and she treats me as I never exist. She never invites me to hangout, but then whenever she is free she invites what seems anyone else besides me to hang with her. Like tonight, she has a concert, she invites someone else and not me to come see her.

I feel like this with a lot of my friends currently. It is as if I don’t exisist to them.

Therefore, I have no one I feel I run to to just cry in their arms and tell them I am simply not OK. I mean obviously I could, but why give them the satisfaction of helping if I honestly know they most likely will not mean it?

I want someone who will actually care. Maybe I just watch too many movies about seeing people who support and are always there for each other.

I just wish I could find that in someone. Anyone.


-Rambling B.B.